When the heart takes over

There are times when we are stuck - between things that are apparent to the logical mind and the ones that we want to believe in. There are certain feelings that drive us into senselessness and sometimes we refuse to get that little hint that our mind tries to give us.

In reality the heart plays no role in our emotions. It does not have the power to do so. Its a play of hormones zig-zagging between signals that go to and forth the brain that controls our thoughts. So, technically we are not presented with a choice. Who cares, right?

How many times have you said 'I have a feeling about this', 'something is not right' and how many times have you paid heed to it? Does it really work- is intuition a magnification of the mistake we could have avoided?  I guess you know something isn't going to work out while you walk through that door. I also know that it's not always in your power to be rational and practical every step of the way.

I have come to realize that it's ok to do something stupid and completely insane sometimes. Some people and situations alter our frames of minds and we just cannot do anything about it. Its ok, lose it and dont feel bad about it. The very person lecturing you otherwise would have done it already!

Ever screamed so hard that your head hurt?

That moment in which we lose all control, when what we do is so ridiculously uncharacteristic. An angry scream, an annoyed expression, raising of the hand, tone and temper and at the peak of it all, tears! What causes it?

Some crazy things happen to us on a daily basis and we ignore it and put it behind us for the sake of maintaining peace in our lives. We tell ourselves that stress sis not good  for us, our health, minds and our kids and in my case, the baby in my tummy. We accept that some people are that way and our only hope at happiness is to ignore their craziness and not let it delve into our mindfulness. But does it really work that way?

Are we assuming that by doing so, there will be some change in the chain of events that cause us to believe we are above them? No, i don't believe so. Some people, situations and emotions don't change. While i am not the kind to give up on people, some have pushed me into that corner. Then the day comes when you have had it up to your neck. You don't care what words you use, what the other person will think or feels and how you come across in general.The result is a lot of screaming, finger pointing and the worst of them all bad blood.

I remain confused on how such emotions and situations need to be dealt with. No amount of prodding, sweet talking and attempts at making someone understand seem to work. I guess some relationships are doomed from the start and all one can do is try not to scream!!

Being a pregnant mommy & freaking out!

One of the most heart warming scenes I have witnessed is that of my son talking to my unborn child a.k.a my tummy. Again, it brings back to mind the marvels of being a child, the beautiful mind that is of a child - a mind that knows no ego no hatred and does not ever have to get even. It only makes things happen for itself and swims in the glory of the love around it.

Shiv (my sonny) hurt his eyes when i poked it by mistake. A simple stupid mistake on my part resulted in him crying for 3 hours straight and a visit to the doctor. The painful outcome for him (even more than the sore eye) was the eye drops prescribed to him. For me it was every time he cried in pain!

I was putting him down for his afternoon nap when he did the sweetest most magical thing. He lifted my tee and while staring at my tummy he said 'baby didi hurt came off for Rambo' and pointed at his sore eye; followed by crying - him and me both! After a while, once the pain n subsided he says 'pain GOOOONE , baby didi pusssh pain in balcony put it in timeout'. Its hard to put in words what i felt at that time!

My mom says the way Shiv talks to his toys he makes them come alive. Its true how a child puts life into everything it touches. A teddy has a name, a car has a color, a doll has a hairstyle and its favorite dress and a bus has its own song.  In Shiv's language, every time I am around my son, 'magic happens'. I pray to God this magic never ceases and I don't ever have to come out of this bubble called mommyhood!

I read an post on FB recently about a dog owner that left his dog on the roads of Delhi in the middle of the winters. The family was moving to UK and did not know what else to do. I wish I could personally whack the daylights out of them in the hopes of putting some sense into their head!!

Its news like this that I find myself unable to come out of. I just cant stop thinking about it!! It makes me wonder if its really possible for people to be so mean, so second-rate and unrelenting about anyone that makes them the center of their universe?? How can one be a dog parent and not understand how incredibly lucky they are to be loved the way they are?? Would they leave their child ont he roads because they cant handle them?

This and the parenting methods of some people makes me wish there was an certification in place for being one. One couple, parents of a 7month old come home after an evening of drinks and are so sleepy that they fail to notice their baby fall out of bed during the night, hurt her head and lose her eye-sight. It does not get more pitiful than this.

I do not proclaim to be the best dog/human parent but I can look anyone in the eye when I say I know the value of a child, human or not! I may not be a perfect parent but i value my children enough to know that they are MY responsibulity and its in my hands to turn my life into bliss or hell in the process of bringing them up. I choose the former and it beaks my heart when it has to happen any other way!

A lot of aspiring pet owners focus on the positive aspects of dog ownership, such as constant company, playing fun games, and having a pet as security for their homes. I would like to say this to anyone who wishes to adopt a pet, PLEASE READ THIS before your make a decision:

• Is everyone in the house in agreement with your decision?
• Can you afford to provide adequate care to the pet before bringing it home? Pets require regular examinations by vets and they need a detailed treatment plan in the event of sickness. make sure that you are fully prepared for such eventualities before you adopt a pet.
• Commitment is a major aspect of being a responsible pet parent. It may mean setting aside things you want to do so as to provide a good life and loving home for your pet.
• Are re you willing train, groom, exercise, feed, and provide companionship?

There is NO difference at all betwen raising a child and raising a pet. Unless you can love them equally do not adopt. You have your life, your job and your family - your pet has only YOU.  He needs your love and care like a fussy toddler vying for attention. He will bark for attention/love/care of you fail to give it to him (and he deserves much more) - Remember he cant speak.

If one dos not have the time, patience and love that a pet or a child requires, please DO NOT spoil their life by bringing  them home. They say that Dogs  are angels that God sent with a note saying 'don't judge, just Love', they ate the note but keep trying to deliver the message! Love them please, they deserve it!!

Do you recognize an angel when you see one? 

If silence is worth a million words, then animals are proof that it is indeed true. Its in the air, their unswerving  love and acceptance of their human parents. No expectations, no ego, no knowledge of whats right and wrong for them - just pure love, its almost divine! In the animal's mind, he/she loves you and that's all that matters. Can we say the same for the supreme human beings we are supposed to be, with that extra sense?

Rocky came into my arms a mere 35 days old and has made me aware of what real LOVE is.  A naughty boy that he is - in times of distress, when I have been hurt or angry - his face on my lap always told me mamma don't worry. He irks me too when he tugs at my feet with a ball in his mouth at the end of a tiring day when all I want to do is rest. But he is such a doll, he gets it and lays down himself.

He is in Pune with his dad now and am in Chennai and I miss him terribly. I miss his vibrant presence, his puppy doggie expressions and his barks for attention. Sometimes i just miss talking to him.Sometimes i miss watching him sleep peacefully while i type away at my laptop.. At other times, I miss watching his face light up at the thought of getting a treat. Its never easy being away from someone you Love.

A hug from you is worth a million unspoken words - Miss you Rocky and cant wait to get to Pune and see you at the door, ball in your mouth wag in your tail - Missing you never gets easier..LOVE you my puppy baby!!!